As if Thursday’s Grey’s Anatomy season finale didn’t already leave us rocking back and forth in the fetal position, creator Shonda Rhimes isn’t making any promises for season 9.

Rhimes spoke to E! Online about Lexie’s death and the future of our beloved doctors left in the woods after the plane crash.

“I hate to say this, but just because you saw people alive at the end of the finale doesn’t mean they’re going to be alive when the season starts up,” she told E!. “We are completely jumping off into the unknown next season.”

“It is very unsettling for me, and the idea of leaving my Meredith and my Cristina in the wilderness without a match, chewing half a stick of gum each, having each other, while beautiful, was really painful,” she added.

As for why Lexie, played by Chyler Leigh, had to die, Rhimes hinted that there was more to the decision to kill off a fan favorite.

“Stuff that happens inside our family is stuff that happens inside our family,” she said. “I have so much respect for Chyler, and the decision was really, it was very hard for everybody involved and I want to respect her privacy on that.”

From the sound of it, Rhimes hasn’t decided yet if someone else will die, but the idea isn’t off the table. Read the full interview over at E! Online.

Do you think we’ll lose another doctor to start season 9?