In Living With Yourself, a Netflix original featuring Paul Rudd, the focus is on Rudd’s character Miles as he battles depression.

Miles thinks he’s found a miracle cure for his depression and unhappiness. Instead, he finds that everything he wanted to be was inside him all along — and now it’s on the loose.

If you’ve seen the trailer for Living With Yourself, you know the basic details: Miles is living with depression, a lackluster marriage, and pretty much hates his life. He goes to the Top Happy Spa, which promises him a new life where he can be happy and his “best self,” and, hey, Top Happy delivers. He’s happy, he feels great, he’s got a new lease on life.

There are also two of him.

I won’t go into how that happens (Top Happy Spa does have a confidentiality agreement, after all), but it’s enough to say that the process didn’t go exactly to plan. And now, Original Miles has New Miles all ready to start his new life… aka Miles’ life.

There are a lot of positives about Living With Yourself. First off, Paul Rudd is phenomenal. As an actor, he dove in headfirst and there’s such a difference between OM (Original Miles) and NM (New Miles). So much so, that seeing them side by side is like looking at two completely different people. From the physicality to the voice to the hair, these are two different men. Rudd manages it so effortlessly, I think people might overlook the very real talent it took to pull this off.

Likewise, Aisling Bea as Miles’ wife Kate is fantastic. Living With Yourself could have focused entirely on Rudd’s character (there’s certainly enough going on where it could have been all about Miles), but the series makes room for Kate in the middle of a male midlife crisis and explores how all of this affects her. She’s got her own issues and her own feelings and the show doesn’t just acknowledge them, it highlights them.

Rudd and Bea have a unique chemistry together and it works. Rudd’s performance is so strong in both characters that it would have been easy to overshadow a lesser actress, but Bea has a fire and heart that make her more than a match. As the dynamics between them shift, and they do shift as the series goes on, both actors remain partners in this increasingly wild story with Bea as the beating heart of the whole thing.

I say all of the above because I want to make it clear that Living With Yourself is a smart, funny, incisive, uncomfortably true story that goes to extremes and, somehow, keeps it all together. It’s well-acted, well written, and well-directed. It’s unique and it deserves to be praised for all the good things it is.

If you’re sensing a caveat, there is one, but let me stress this is personal and likely serves only to prove how good the show is.

So, here’s the thing about Living With Yourself that may whap you in the face — if you live with depression, it may be really hard to watch.

As someone who’s lived with depression for close to 20 years (diagnosed, anyway, but it’s likely been longer), Living With Yourself danced on all sorts of buttons. I KNOW Miles. I’ve BEEN Miles. I’ve been that person who felt every life choice they’ve made was the wrong one. I have days I wake up and just don’t want to get out of bed. I’ve wished more than once for some magical procedure that would fix my brain and make me happy again.

Miles’ trip to Top Happy Spa made perfect sense to me. Who wouldn’t want to become a new and better version of themselves? Who wouldn’t want to wake up happy and free of all of the baggage that’s weighed them down for decades?

The results of his trip to the spa and the fact that he ends up fighting himself for ownership of his own life is such an incredibly relatable situation that watching it left me in a state of both understanding and sadness. Because there are days it feels exactly like that.

The choices both Old and New Miles make are human, real, and understandable even when they go totally off the rails. New Miles is so likable, so funny, so charming and Old Miles hates him for it because NM’s a reminder of everything OM used to be.

As the two fight for dominance in the series known as “Miles’ Life,” each alternately work with and fight against the other. How’s that for a deep cut into the life of a depressed person? Who gets the body today? Who’s in charge when we have that big project or need to go to a party or even sit down to write something we’ve been meaning to do for days?

In other words, Living With Yourself triggered the heck out of me and if you live with depression, it may do the same to you. Word of warning: There’s also suicide ideation dropped in here.

That said, I stayed with Living With Yourself all the way through the end of the season even if it made me uncomfortable, and I’m personally glad I did. It wasn’t easy and there were times I broke down in tears or had to stop watching, but Living With Yourself isn’t here to make anyone feel bad. It’s an incisive (if over the top) look at the battles we face every day and the choices we make, as well as how those battles and choices not only make us who we are, but give up a chance every day to choose something else.

I can’t say what creator Timothy Greenberg (The Daily Show, The Detour) was going for with Living With Yourself, but it’s clear he dove in and made something that will both entertain and will make people think — and maybe make us all laugh when it hurts the most.