The Hunger Games star Jennifer Lawrence is speaking out about the wage gap in a new piece in Lena Dunham’s recently-launched newsletter, Lenny.

In a piece titled “Why Do I Make Less Than My Male Co-Stars?” Lawrence openly wonders why she has to work harder to secure a payday that’s equal to the salary her male counterparts make. Her piece is honest and forward — at many times she’s very direct with the reader over her current situation.

While Jennifer speaks about salaries that go into the millions of dollars, her point can be understood by everyday Americans: Statistically speaking women make 79% of every dollar that a man makes, and the gap is even wider for women of color.

“When the Sony hack happened and I found out how much less I was being paid than the lucky people with dicks, I didn’t get mad at Sony. I got mad at myself. I failed as a negotiator because I gave up early. I didn’t want to keep fighting over millions of dollars that, frankly, due to two franchises, I don’t need. (I told you it wasn’t relatable, don’t hate me),” she writes, referring to The Hunger Games and X-Men.

Jennifer admits she wanted to do something that many don’t in Hollywood: She wanted to be kind. “If I’m honest with myself, I would be lying if I didn’t say there was an element of wanting to be liked that influenced my decision to close the deal without a real fight. I didn’t want to seem ‘difficult’ or ‘spoiled.’ At the time, that seemed like a fine idea, until I saw the payroll on the Internet and realized every man I was working with definitely didn’t worry about being ‘difficult’ or ‘spoiled.’ This could be a young-person thing. It could be a personality thing. I’m sure it’s both. But this is an element of my personality that I’ve been working against for years, and based on the statistics, I don’t think I’m the only woman with this issue. Are we socially conditioned to behave this way? We’ve only been able to vote for what, 90 years? I’m seriously asking — my phone is on the counter and I’m on the couch, so a calculator is obviously out of the question. Could there still be a lingering habit of trying to express our opinions in a certain way that doesn’t ‘offend’ or ‘scare’ men?”

Jennifer says even the times when she’s been nice have been seen as aggression. “A few weeks ago at work, I spoke my mind and gave my opinion in a clear and no-bullshit way; no aggression, just blunt. The man I was working with (actually, he was working for me) said, ‘Whoa! We’re all on the same team here!’ As if I was yelling at him. I was so shocked because nothing that I said was personal, offensive, or, to be honest, wrong. All I hear and see all day are men speaking their opinions, and I give mine in the same exact manner, and you would have thought I had said something offensive.

“I’m over trying to find the ‘adorable’ way to state my opinion and still be likable! Fuck that. I don’t think I’ve ever worked for a man in charge who spent time contemplating what angle he should use to have his voice heard. It’s just heard. Jeremy Renner, Christian Bale, and Bradley Cooper all fought and succeeded in negotiating powerful deals for themselves. If anything, I’m sure they were commended for being fierce and tactical, while I was busy worrying about coming across as a brat and not getting my fair share. Again, this might have NOTHING to do with my vagina, but I wasn’t completely wrong when another leaked Sony email revealed a producer referring to a fellow lead actress in a negotiation as a ‘spoiled brat.’ For some reason, I just can’t picture someone saying that about a man.”

Lena Dunham’s Lenny discusses feminism, style, health, politics, and friendship, according to their website. You can sign up for free at the link.

The actress’s op ed arrives just a month before Mockingjay, Part 2 hits theaters. We’re sure she’ll be discussing this topic further on the film’s press tour.