Miss last night’s new episode of Glee titled “Lights Out”? Check out our recap of what went down as well as some behind-the-scenes info you may have not even realized you missed!

This week’s episode opens with Ryder talking to Jake about how he has never felt so close to someone as he does with Katie. Jake, smartly, reminds him that this person may not even be a girl. Ryder, being the upstanding guy that he is, shrugs it off and basically says “I don’t care, I’m still attached.” Ryder then tells Jake that he opened up to Katie about his past, but after Jake prods for what it might be, Ryder replies with an “I can’t.” Blake Jenner continues to impress us with his amazing ability to juggle major character motifs, but we’ll get to more of that later.

Santana, being the responsible roommate that she is, arrives back at the loft with a torn, ragged (and most likely bed bug ridden) reclining chair that apparently Kurt and Rachel of all people will be delighted to accept in to their living room. It’s deja vu all over again when Rachel commands Santana to sit down because she and Kurt have to talk to her. They tell Santana that she’s throwing her life away, but Santana replies that being a cage dancer is something she loves and tries to dismiss the confrontation.

Back at McKinley, Sam implores everyone to get the hell off of Twitter and the Facebooks and start living life a little more. He begins singing a song that he only recently found out was playing the night his parents conceived him. A little awkward, but right up the Sam storyline alley. He proceeds to start “You’ve Lost That Lovin’ Feelin'” by The Righteous Brothers and is joined in by Ryder and New Directions throughout.

Kurt’s back at Vogue (oh yeah, remember that?) where Izzy (Yay, Sarah Jessica Parker is back!) asks how Kurt’s Dad is, yet again showing compassion and humanity, and yet again proving she is one of the more lovable guest stars in all of Glee. Kurt tells Izzy he thought he was getting fired for not being at Vogue in so long, but Izzy reminds him that she will never stop someone for going after their dreams. She does, however, ask Kurt to bring some friends to a ballet event to help wrangle talent. One little note from the author: internships, especially in New York City, and especially in the fashion industry, do not work on a come-as-you-please basis. If Kurt hadn’t showed up to Vogue in weeks and weeks, he would have simply been fired and replaced. Not to nit pick, but don’t aspire to be a come-as-you-please intern, kids. I digress.

Sue is back and reveals that she is a freelance champion as she writes in her journal saying that “life could not be better.” It’s interesting to hear this inner dialogue, the confessional of characters on Glee, and hear her clearly lying to herself. It’s clear that Sue misses what she truly believes is her passion. It turns out she’s a personal trainer as she is seen coaching an aerobics class with one Mr. Blaine Anderson attending in some very short shorts. Here are some screen shots we found from amazing people on tumblr:

And yes, we will be pausing and rewinding when we replay this episode. Blaine also sees some guy smirking at him and is thoroughly unimpressed. Watch:

Sue mentions her trademark Sue90x, and Blaine tells Sue the Cheerios need her back and admits that he knows something went down when she left McKinley.

Artie, being the musical genius that he is (what?), tells Sam that when he ran over a plastic bottle, he thought a great idea for regionals would be to do a song entirely with “a water bottle, pencils, zippers” or whatever else they could come up with. Sam’s all like “okay,” and that’s the abrupt end of that scene – one of the many choppy sporadic segues throughout “Lights Out.”

Back in Bushwick, Kurt tells Rachel and Santana that they are invited to help wrangle talent at the ballet and after a couple of tugs, Santana agrees to go. We get to flashback to Rachel and Kurt in their ballet classes at a tender age of six. Kurt talks about how his mom enrolled him and is seen gallivanting around with a magic wand, and it’s definitely the cutest thing you’ve seen on TV. Santana knocks the daydreaming back to reality with “I skipped all that crap to study the timeless art of crunk.” Is that a GIF yet? While we wait for that to get made, here’s her reaction:

Back in the choir room, Ryder admits that he wants to “unplug” his feelings and let everyone know what’s going on with him. He sings the song “Everybody Hurts,” which Blake Jenner and company sang on the second season of The Glee Project during Vulnerability week. It was an impressive performance, but the acting that followed was even more impressive. Ryder admits, in front of the entire glee club (minus Joe, Brittany and Sugar…where are they again?) that he was molested by his babysitter when he was young. Sam and Artie don’t find this to be an issue at all and proclaim that this is every guy’s dream: to have a 17 year-old girl touching him in the shower. Will, being the mediocre educator that he is, somehow let’s this go on without interrupting or getting upset. In fact, he got more upset that Marley wrote her own song than two guys clowning around and poking fun at someone who has been sexually abused. Why? Ryder sarcastically high fives the guys and walks away, but Kitty clearly connected with Ryder’s vulnerability.

Kitty asks Ryder to dinner where she tells him that she not only has had trouble with guys in her life, but that she was also molested when she was younger. She retells the story of a sleepover and her best friend’s brother touching her in “places” and that she told her parents later on, but they thought the brother was too nice of a guy to do such a thing. She tells Ryder that she thought the easiest thing to do was to switch schools and so she did. She says that she understands what it feels like as a teary-eyed Ryder holds her hand and says “thank you.” Ryder is now juggling more interesting story lines than some of the veterans of this show ,and he’s doing it in style. It’s a hard argument to say that Blake Jenner isn’t one of the top 2 best things about Glee in season 4.

Back on stage, the glee club performs Queen’s “We Will Rock You” acoustically without any instruments. Meanwhile, Jake does some tap dancing and some of the most beautiful pirouettes you’ve ever seen a man do:

Sue, who has been fired from McKinley for causing a school panic with having a loaded gun in school, somehow manages to get back on school grounds and is illegally awkwardly watching Roz “coach” the Cheerios. Becky joins her and tells her that she misses her “so bad it hurts.” Sue’s over it and says “Becky, I’m sorry, honey, but I’ve moved on. I can’t go back to babysitting brats,” as she begins singing “Little Girls” from the Broadway musical Annie. This is fun because for those who don’t know, Jane Lynch will be starring in Annie on Broadway this summer!  Sue tells Becky that you couldn’t pay her to go back to coaching the Cheerios.

At the ballet, Izzy tells Rachel, Kurt, and Santana that they get to watch the ballet from the wings. Santana admits that she was in ballet when she was younger and that she felt safe, not different and a part of something there. All four of them then begin a long, beautiful performance of “At The Ballet” from the popular Broadway show A Chorus Line. At the end of the performance, Santana admits to Izzy that she doesn’t know what she wants to do in her life or how to get there. Izzy, again being the amazing person that she is, tells Santana to find “Something that you love. Something that feeds your soul.” Sarah Jessica Parker sounded amazing in this performance (it’s no “Turkey Lurkey Time/Let’s Have a Kiki” let’s put it that way).

Roz, who is sick of Becky (which really means impatient) brings her to Principal Figgins’ office for him to discipline her. Becky ends up telling Figgins that she’s got something she needs to tell him.

Back on the iMac in the library, Ryder is talking to Katie. And in a twist of events that probably no one say coming, Katie suggest that the phone that rang in the choir room may not have been hers. Yes, that’s possible, but how could you do that to us Glee!? Katie says she’ll be right back and right on cue Kitty appears next to Ryder, inviting him to lunch. When Ryder says he’d rather wait for Katie to return, Kitty gets pissed off. “How can you pick an online fantasy over an actual fantasy?” she yells. The moment Kitty walks off camera, Katie is back with a “hey babe.” The timing of this would lead one to believe that despite what you may be feeling, it looks like Katie isn’t Kitty.

Santana is late to her first dance class at NYADA extension. The dance teacher reminds everyone that being in this class doesn’t mean it increases your chances of becoming a full blown student. When asked what she’s doing there after a couple of snide remarks to the teacher, Santana says “I love to dance.” While Santana is doing plies at the bar, she sees the young version of herself in first position and a tutu, and it inspires her. Santana walks over as the young version of herself pleads, “don’t forget me again, okay?” Santana replies with “I won’t I promise.” To me, this was very American Horror Story for Ryan Murphy, but I buy into this sappy overarching metaphor about fighting self, so I was a bit weepy in this moment.

In the final scene of the episode, the New Directions sing “The Longest Time” by Billy Joel on stage.

After the episode was over, the two actors who portrayed victims of sexual abuse, Becca Tobin and Blake Jenner, gave a PSA on sexual abuse and urged those who may have been victims to seek help at www.rainn.org.

What were your thoughts about “Lights Out?” Did you notice that Cory Monteith and some scenes with Blaine and Sam were meant to be in the episode but weren’t? You can read all about the differences in tonight’s episode from what we were expecting right here!

Though this episode was good, it didn’t leave us begging for more. Our reaction is best brought to you in GIF form from Rachel Berry: