Our Girls season 3, episode 4 recap says goodbye to a character that tosses Hannah’s future into limbo.

Girls tackles grief in tonight’s episode, “Deep Inside.” For Hannah, it takes a village, or in this case, a neighborhood, to awaken the emotions hidden “deep inside.” But do the pokes brought on by the outside world only make the emotions moan and roll over back to sleep?

”Is this floor safe to be on?” Hannah’s meeting with her editor, David, is postponed. Indefinitely. As Millstreet Press begins to deal with the fallout of their editor’s sudden appearance facedown in the Hudson, Hannah questions what the travesty means for her book. Hannah tells Jessa the news, who compares his death to a flood or jury duty: sometimes it just happens.

Jessa observes that we control which moments to focus on in life. For Hannah, that moment is now. And now includes the immediate problem of finding out who will take care of her eBook. Adam returns home with an awesome photo featuring a young Tom Hanks playing basketball. For a brief second it seems that Hannah turns inward to focus on her emotions and will return to praise Adam’s amazing flea market find, but nothing comes of it.

“I wouldn’t know what a tree is.” David’s death reveals a layer of Hannah, or lack of layers, to Adam. As Hannah heads out to pick up a shift at Ray’s, Adam asks her what she would feel if he died. Hannah states, frankly, how extremely sad she would be and the stories she plans to tell at his funeral. Proving he wears his emotions on his bare chest, Adam replies, “If you died, life would be a blur.” After speaking through the ghost of Keats for a second, he returns to Adam mode, bluntly pointing out that Hannah would be more concerned about being able to make rent than losing him.

Hannah follows David’s story on Gawker. Adam chastises her for reading such a site, but Hannah rebuts his distaste, offering sister site Jezebel as a place where she has made many friends in the comments section. (Maybe not so much anymore…)

At Ray’s, Hannah receives further confirmation that her emotional expressions do not sit well with other people. Ray asks Hannah if she finds it odd that he feels worse about the loss of a man who threw him across a bar during their one and only interaction. Though Hannah does not process her emotions well, she does find every opportunity to use David’s death as a conversation starter.

Laird turns out to be her final encounter for the day and responds to her news with a hug and tales of his many losses, including, most recently, his turtle.

“Visit their Facebook In Memorium Page” Jessa’s conversation with Hannah reminds her of a close friend, Season, who passed away a few years ago. After asking Shoshanna about grieving a close friend’s death, Jessa filters through Shosh’s suggestions of publicly mourning her loss. Instead of writing a book of poems, Jessa calls up a mutual friend to find out where Season was buried. She learns that Season was never buried, because Season did not die. When Season’s life was out of control, she sought to remove Jessa from it by faking her death. Now living in a brownstone with a baby and a cool-looking husband, Jessa realizes that her toxic behavior affects people in ways she could never see.

On her walk back home, a sly smirk crosses Jessa’s face, hinting that she is rather amused by Season’s cunning move to fake her own death.

Or What? Marnie’s viral video finds a new audience when Ray shows Hermy. As they respond to Marnie’s rage with lyrics from the song, she finally breaks and calls quits on her “just getting by” lifestyle. She deserves fancy people demanding to work with her and not sitting in the shadow of Ray’s mediocre success in business. Though triumphant in that moment, Marnie’s sob story is playing itself out.

Among the Dead: Caroline, Hannah, and Laird opt for a casual run through a graveyard and end with a break to discuss how medication acts as both a hindrance and blessing in their lives. Hannah can now see the world around her, but she is not sure Adam would like what exists when she is trapped inside her own head.

Caroline tells Hannah about their cousin Margaret who died at the age of 12 from muscular dystrophy. Adam spent everyday with her and even made her dream of going to a high school dance a reality at his senior prom. When Caroline ends the story with Margaret’s death, Laird is an inconsolable mess, while Hannah ponders if Margaret’s dress was small as a result of her condition.

Hannah continues drawing parallels between the story and Adam’s behaviors. That is until Caroline admits the story was fake. Once again, Hannah sees the world as something for her to break apart to suit her need to analyze and immediately distance herself from.

Where to? Hannah and Marnie both retreat into the deepest parts of their being tonight, but with different results. Marnie proves that no matter what she puts on the outside (listening to spiritual motivators and drinking smoothies), her desire to be respected others is all she wants. Hannah, however, has nothing inside. Even in the deepest recesses of her being, she cannot conjure up any emotional responses.

When Hannah finds Adam later that day, she apologizes and explains that she needs time to process her emotions. The chuckle you feel rising in your chest is warranted as you watch Hannah attempt to force emotion to fool Adam. Exhale that laugh as Hannah begins to tell the story of HER cousin Margaret. Perhaps Hannah is merely following the Bard’s advice, “To weep is to make less the depth of grief.” Or, maybe, she is void of emotion.

Watch Girls season 3, episode 5 “Only Child” Saturday, February 1 at 10 p.m. ET on HBO